The End

Today marks my last official day of pay, including severance and accrued PTO. Thus it marks the beginning of the financial woes. I am in a much better frame of mind, regarding the old job and my new outlook. Apparently though I am going to have to stop writing about my feelings on the old job as it seems I have a lot of new readers and the writing is causing some drama that was unintended. This is probably too vague, I know. In any event, I am grateful to have new readers but people, comments please!!! It's nice to have feedback and know you are out there. I am safe to stick to family activities and the kids' lives but I have to be more careful about what I say about myself. Which leads me to a thought that has occurred to me more and more lately -- make the blog private. That way, if you want to read you have to e-mail me first and I will give you a password. I really don't want it to come to this, but I also don't want the things I say on here to jeopardize any friendships, or a new employment situation, or anything else. I will continue to ponder that...

So back to the job search, and life in general. I am still up and down with emotions and outlook but James is back now and that is definitely good for my attitude. I had a good day today, with two positive conversations and two resumes sent out. I still have some contacts to call and follow up calls to make. And I am doing all of my homework on Plan B, which is to start down the path to get my teaching license for secondary math or science. I am now familiar with the process and feel like it would be a good plan to get me a job by at least August. It's definitely something I have toyed with in the past, and something I believe I would enjoy. But the thing holding me back is $$$. As is common knowledge, teachers do not get paid a lot. And I have to invest a bit of money just to apply for the program, and then I will have to take courses and tests through the next couple of years to obtain the license. The good news is that I can begin to work a regular teaching position while I am going through the courses and tests. It's really just the money thing holding me back, and I hate that money has to be the governing force in life. I hate when I have hopes and dreams and then money, or lack of money deflates those hopes and dreams. It's rough, and life is just not fair sometimes. And now I am done being melodramatic :) I will probably wait just a few more weeks before putting the initial steps of Plan B in effect. I had a good meeting with a potential employer on Friday and that may turn into an exciting new opportunity that could just be the change I am looking for. It's not a career change, but it's another aspect of engineering that is new to me. It will take a couple of weeks to pan out though. So that's about it for now. Tomorrow I am volunteering in Quinn's classroom again, and my mom comes to visit this weekend so that will be really fun for all of us :)